Blessing And A Curse

Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

I never understood this target on me
I didn't ask to look the way that I do
Did all this bullying derive from envy?
Was I guilty of it too?
I wasn't dark enough to hang with those girls
But I wasn't white enough to be red and blue
Ooh, stuck in between me, myself and I, forced to face the truth

Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

Got old enough to know my beauty
Brought me to places I could only imagine
And I learned it all don't come duty free
Never fall on entrapment
And as much as I wish it was different
I wouldn't have it any other way
'Cause it taught me how to pay attention, what a price to pay

Spent half of my life in denial
Was an ongoing trial
Already sworn in, for better or worse
Left in the hands of a jury
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
It's a blessing and a curse

Spent half of my life in denial
It's a blessing and a curse
Left in the hands of a jury
It's a blessing and a curse