all i ever wished for

There's nothing you can do to change my mind
I said it to myself a million times
I'd rather hurt myself before you try
I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life
Everything I do I wish I'd done it right
Seems that I am never really satisfied
It hurts to think I tell myself these little lies
The things I do so I can fall asleep at night
But you don't get it
And you never will
Feel like a kid for the first time
I'll never show you how I cry
Cause you don't get it
And you never will
Maybe not like this
But it's all I ever wished for
It's all I ever wished for
I live my life stuck inside a dream
And it's the only way that I feel clean
I'll pretend that I don't care it's fine
I'll pretend but it's a crime in my mind
Everything I do I wish I'd done it right
Seems that I am never really satisfied
It hurts to think I tell myself these little lies
The things I do so I can fall asleep at night
But you don't get it
And you never will
Feel like a kid for the first time
I'll never show you how I cry
Cause you don't get it
And you never will
Maybe not like this
But it's all I ever wished for