Still

Sitting idly.
Watching static
Noise on a screen,
trying to paint a scene.

Though it numbs me,
My eyes, weary.
A heart burns with fire.
I’m begging to feel something.

There must be more
Don’t wanna feel so tired,
Yelling at the walls.

Yeah, this isn’t life.
But I’m doing alright
I want to feel love
I long for the light.
Time hangs heavy, in my mind a movie,
Starring me as the lead,
Stumbling in ultra-speed.

There must be more, don’t wanna feel so
lifeless
running’ out the door.

What if the view outside my head is free of
pain.

If so, I promise to leave my bed and feel again.
I wanna wake at the sunrise,
Sleep when it’s calm,
Quit overthinking all the time.

Yeah, this isn’t life
But I’m doing alright.
I want to feel love, I long for the light.

Yeah, this isn’t life
But I’m doing alright.
I want to feel love, I long for the light.