I know

And when I said it's been hell
I don't think I could ever mean that
Maybe I did in foresight and couldn't see that
I am alive somewhat alright I haven't been bad
Since I first laid my eyes on you in class

And I offer you in return for a life of love
An offer I will be so torn if you give it up
I feel so crazy a little lately I know it's not lust
But what if we can put some time in maybe just doing us

And I'm not tryna sound selfish when I ask you this
I need you're lovin' need and a huggin' and a touch and kiss
I haven't felt this feeling in a long time
Now and then In my room I ask myself if she'll be mine

I'd all for her love even flatline
But that conflicts, why I exist in this timeline
Now I'm doing, saying things and with no remorse
The infrastructure of a ghost running 'round inside a corpse

I try to not objectify A woman, you've gotta understand I've seen it all
I've seen the rise, the time slow demise the thin lines thinning, and I've seen the fall

It takes a toll a man like me to pray to keep content
It takes a toll a man like me to see you and stay calm
I spew my heart my mind my body on a track or two I've the worth of inside your purse the cherry lip balm

I see your face I get so happy
I'm not even
In the studio trynna sound sappy
These are my internal thoughts
And likely my demise I've got to take a pause

Now I'll resume
You're out of love maybe
I'll presume
Unfortunate for me
It's these things my brain consumes

Now I'm here almost in the dark
I'm in my room where my life flipped upside down and out and screwing with a tune

Now I'm here might as well ask you a question
If I don't hit the pen, and live again will you invest then?
If I stop swearing on a star
And genuinely see
Will you get the picture of love, I'll help you get the scheme

Pieces of a puzzle carved of glass
And glued to foil poorly put together
Slowing and surely they're falling apart
Another beat inside the catalog
Of another man's life watching the movie closely as the story starts

I have to act again what I can do to show I'm worthy
You say one thing I'll quit it all cold turkey
The things we'll see through the days of our journey
But leaving me alone isn't quite the thing thats working