Afraid to love
I've been searching for something I'll probably never find
Tryna connect like a pencil between a dotted line
I've been fiending for a girl that's gone stay by my side
Getting desperate and i know its a negative sign
So I started keeping distance and my feelings hidden
I done started building coffins, put my feelings in it
You give away your heart,they'll break it nigga that's a given
They get clumsy just to act like they ain't never did it
Gat me wondering if anyone deserve my trust
Built a few boundaries, barbed wire fences up
I was told I'm too emotional, so i'm scared to love
So if i tell you that i love you, im just tryna fuck
That's not who i am but i cannot contain my lust
And if you tell me that you love me, i might try to duck
We don't do shit to each other,do it to ourself
Are we scared of commitment or is it scared of us
But i suppose that its many ways around
There's a puddle of emotion, is there anyway around
My feet is on the ground but my head is in the cloud
The ground is coming closer or maybe I'm falling down
I don't know
I'm so confused
To the point where i do not know what to do
And my head is spinning like a chef whipping a stew
And I'm keeping all my feelings to myself to avoid being used
Uhh
How does it feel to have someone keep it real
Who gone love you for your flaws, nurture you if was ill
Who gone feed you when you starving, who gone offer you a meal
Who gone ride by your side in a car without a wheel
How does it feel?
To want to make a sacrifice
For someone so important ,that remains in your life
Who won't never slacken up
Who gone really keep it tight
I've been looking for something that is probably no where in sight
Real
It gat me thinking wandering what I've been searching for
I swear I'll never make the same mistake i did before
Spoke on my nigga yeah some shit that he should hate me for
Been tripping on a bitch that wasn't worth nothing at all
I swear I'm sorry my nigga and that's coming from the heart
Been tryna live with that mistake but i still find it hard
Cause it was all over a bitch that didn't play her part
Yeah that's the same type of shit that made me up my guard
Yeah
i swear that loving ain for me
Every time i get into it I'm always swimming to deep
So I gatta keep my distance, i gatta stay bout a feet
I done took to many Ls bet they think of me as weak
But i ain't stressing over nothing that can't get me a receipt
Yeah I'm scared of catching feelings but I'm loving getting paid
And it's not like imma find someone that love me anyway
So I'm running from emotions that might hurt me in anyway
I'm too afraid