Roze Of Thorns

[Verse 1]
They say every rose has its thorn
They say this rose shoulda never been born
Back in o four, they sounded the horn
Everyone around began to mourn
Maybe that's a lie, but it feels that way
Hating myself gets me through the day
I apologize if this song sounds cliche
But this kind of hatred is easy to convey
I dislike a lot of people, then I look in the mirror
I'll only look good if I drown myself in liquor
But then the next morning, my regrets will get bigger
Every mistake makes my bad future clearer
I throw away my friends like a wad of paper
Then I cry myself to sleep cuz I know that I'm a failure
I can never help myself, I'm my own fucking traitor
When I find my life story, I'll get an eraser
Do you ever feel like it's just an endless fight?
You're drowning in the dark, you'll never see the light
You're hearing my lore every time I write
Music's my escape, so I'm cooking every night
If I open my eyes, I'll be met with angry faces
They'll remind me of all those awful places
Where I caused distress and time was wasted
So I have to run away with no destination
For every friend I make, there's fifty more foes
For every friend I have, zero know my woes
All they can do is tend to a dead rose
They're carrying a burden, but that's what they chose
Running out of ink, but I'll never lose my tears
I'll never stop the nightmares, I'll never lose my fears
I have a sixth sense when trouble appears
I'm an alien to the world, let me take some souvenirs

[Hook]
Nobody hates me more than myself
I know this is wrong, and I know I need help
So I'm writing this letter to a wilted rose
Well, his arrogance really shows

[Verse 2]
I can wipe my past, but memory is forever
My list of mistakes is far too long to measure
No matter what they say, I'll never be better
All the times I've tried are just wasted effort
You say you're in the right, but you're hiding that you're wrong
Writing fake ass shit in another fucking song
Telling your fans to just sing along
Go back to hell where I know you belong
I see echoes of my past, and I'm filled with regret
Life's a roulette, and I've lost every bet
Every single day, I have the wrong mindset
I remember every bad intention, I'll never forget
I'll never forget all my broken promises
I'll never remember when I last felt positive
So insecure that I wish I was anonymous
People think I'm happy, but I'm honestly the opposite
I put this mask on my face to hide who I am
They said life is great, that's a fucking scam
Every sappy happy song is just another sham
Don't give me hopeless lies, I don't give a damn
I want to be loved, but I cherish the hatred
When they know I exist, the moment feels sacred
Even if I'm being beaten, I'll feel appreciated
What are these nightmares my brain has created?
I'm stuck in hell, and I'm living the dream
I don't know what I want, the confusion makes me scream
I've fucked up enough, there's no chance to redeem
When I beat myself up, people think I'm extreme
Fuck this life of mine, just pull the damn plug
I think I'm being strangled when I get a hug
Crushed by my insecurities, I can't get snug
This kinda pain can't be numbed by no drug

[Hook]
Nobody hates me more than myself
I know this is wrong, I know I need help
I'm writing this letter to a wilted rose
His arrogance really shows

[Verse 3]
I'm doing nothing with my life, do I have a purpose?
Do I even matter to a single fucking person?
If I was gone, would it be one less burden?
Sometimes I'm unsure, other times I'm certain
Sometimes I feel like I don't belong
When I spill my problems out, no-one can respond
All I can say is that I've hurt too long
I've gotten through a lot but I'm only so strong
Sometimes I worry if I'll ever lose my mind
I have many questions, many answers to find
Can I not see the light, or am I just blind?
Do I really wanna leave it all behind?
The rain pounds down, but my eyes are even heavier
Every day I walk this earth just gets deadlier
I hate my personality, I wish I was friendlier
Every time someone walks away, I feel emptier
A rose on fire, burning down the forest
Swallowing everything we ever found important
What's a hate song without a stupid chorus?
When I need creative lines, get me a thesaurus
Sometimes I wonder why I even make music
Sometimes I hate my voice and play my albums muted
Sometimes I look at what I wrote and feel fucking stupid
This shitty little rose is so fucking clueless
I bully myself more than my biggest enemy
They say I need help, but I don't want therapy
It feels like hell holding this identity
Will I ever fulfill my destiny?
I gotta carry on for the few that care
Closing off this hate mail as I sit in my chair
Why in the hell is life so unfair?
Why is the world so full of despair?