Letter To You

Aye listen close I'm about to
Revisit a real scene
My girl's a different person from
Times that you've intervened
And times that you've told
Her she wasn't shit
You played a little too hard with her
Almost witnessed her quit
That was the darkest month I've ever lived
I tried to put it behind us
Scars on her wrist to remind us
Of what was soon to be
If I could meet you live I'd fight you
One on one just you and me
I'll take off all my jewelry and show
You how a nigga get down
I'm from St Louis what's up with the kid
Took her from peacefully getting rest
To a hospital bed
My baby girl is dying and it's killing me
Overprotective I get it
It's been instilled ever since I
Watched her explain to
Me all the shit that her parents ain't know
Ever since seeing her cry
Just became the regular, no
I tried my hardest to keep her
Straight and her head on right
But in the process of doing
So I be losing mine wanna see her shine
But when you come around you soak up
All the sunlight out her eyes
Take the smile off her face and
Take the color out her sky
Just to hear a child tell me
Fuck a life I'd rather die
There's some shit that I can't explain if
I tried and I try a lot so if I
Start to cry that means I'm crying for you
So don't you worry about a thing
I put my life before you
And don't go running from
Your past I'm here, so I support you
When bullets fly and you don't bleed
Just know I took it for you my letter to you

And there's no hate in my eyes
Sometimes I try to let it go
And when you see me tell me do
You see pain in my eyes
Or do you think I've let it go
Should I let it go

Now here you got this seventeen year old boy
He started writing music
Well he's been writing since a youngin'
But he never used it
He went from writing bout his day
And how he does in schooling
To talking bout his little girl because
She been going through it
Talking bout her sadness and how
Her health been spiraling down
On top of that he liked to write
His friends would call him a clown
On top of that ain't
Feel accepted when he walked in his house
Add on to that, the world is burning him out
And now he's doubting if
His family even care
About the shit he likes to do
Bashed him when he said he rapped
They told him take a different route
These things can hurt when you
Just trynna be you
He's still dealing with the repercussions
From seeing the sadness from
His girl as he saw her mind go numb
Not many people that young should
Witness a time so dark
And neither parent was aware of what
Was up with their son
Not people that age should witness
That kind of change, he was done
Finally said fuck it he gone go
On home and fix it himself
He needed answers but his
Mind wasn't with it
His head spinning like what the fuck
Is going on with my life
If I go this way then I'm wrong
If I go this way then I'm still wrong
I don't get it, God tell me
If this might be my last and final minutes
With these pills and the sun through
The shade is the only witness
All he wants is some forgiveness and peace
Now he's hand shaking his knees and
His knees and his hands
Shaking ah' shit nice
Now his phone blowing up
Three rings no answer
A text still no answer
It's eating at him like cancer
His mother calls and he finally gets it
She like baby
Put em down are you crazy just
Sit down this is crazy
His heart speeding, it's racing
This room small but he's pacing
A smile falls from his face
And his father on the way home while
His sister shook to the bone
His hand still holding the
Phone but before you
Heard his last breath he was gone
Letter to you

He died that night, yeah
And the killer still loose, still lurking
A silent weapon
It's just something that the police
Can't catch and that's depression
So I'm sorry i'm sorry
I think I have to let it go
When you see me tell me tell me
Do you see pain in my eyes
Or do you think I let it go i let it go