goldenboy

I guess I would like to know
What do you know about me
That I don't
You were never supposed to exist, Roxas
What
How could you even say such a thing
Put on a mask with a smile but
I could never fool you
Gun me down I thought
That I was bulletproof
Push me back and forth like
There was two of you
A happy accident if you just
Read between the lines
And you'll see
A face tattooed with years of misery
Sunken eyes and drunken lies
I tell myself every night
Wake up amidst the chaos every day
Never thought my life would go this way
Goldenboy turned to a disgrace
Goldenboy turned to a disgrace
I don't know if I can go on
Much longer
I'm lost when I wasn't even
Tryin to wander
Try my best to put it
All in these songs but
I guess my death come
Before dishonor
I burn away my flesh to
Preserve my brain
I burn away my past so
They learn my name
Stay golden
Emotions
Deeper than the ocean
Heart broken
Wide open
But you would never know it
I'm a vessel of the void
Reflection of my choices
The outcome of never, ever
Ever ending noise
I'm not the same
You can hear it in my voice
Shine turned to rust
Still the goldenboy
Wake up amidst the chaos every day
Never thought my life would go this way
Goldenboy turned to a disgrace
Goldenboy turned to a disgrace