Falling Out

It’s been three years since this all started
I’ve become something that should not exist
I’m tired of living and tired of me
Too scared of dying alone
Too sure I’ll see you no more
This feeling is the only thing that keeps me company
And every fucking time I find myself in bed
Searching for a purpose
Searching for something worth it to get up
I need to believe in something
I get that everyone sometimes
Have to stumble to learn
But I keep falling
I keep falling
And when I’m trying to get up
You kick me down again
I’m breaking my bones
I'm losing it all
This feeling is the only thing that keeps me company
And every fucking time I find myself in bed
Searching for a purpose
Searching for something worth it to get up
I need to believe in something
You have to learn to love yourself
Before filling someone else’s heart
With feelings that are just in your head
And all I did
Was let those feelings overwhelm me
Until they took control of me
But now it’s so hard to get out
I’m just a ghost living in a lifeless body
But I know that no matter how dark's around you
You’ll find the way towards the light again
This feeling is the only thing that keeps me company
And every fucking time I find myself in bed
Searching for a purpose
Searching for something worth it to get up
I need to believe in something