What It's Gonna Be

I’ve been living in this hell
My mind playing tricks on me
I can’t ever seem to get a fucking break
It’ll be what it’s gonna be

I’m glad that you wish I was dead
It shows that you never really cared
Guess I’m just shocked though
But it’ll be what it’s gonna be

It’ll be what it’s gonna be
Being on my own & acting like it’s not affecting me
Going through the pics, reminiscing how I truly loved her she
Always made me feel it but I guess it wasn’t meant to be
(Guess it wasn’t meant to be)

I walk alone round my home streets
Clearing my head, but I can’t cut you outta my dreams
Drinking too much, but I don’t wanna let it get to me
Proof is so high, so I’ll be feeling it eventually

Left me with all of the lies
I still don’t understand why
You only wasted my time
The tears they made me go blind
Like I was dying inside
& I know, everyday was tryna relive better times

I’ve been living in this hell
My mind playing tricks on me
I can’t ever seem to get a fucking break
It’ll be what it’s gonna be

I’m glad that you wish I was dead
It shows that you never really cared
Guess I’m just shocked though
But it’ll be what it’s gonna be

Times when it was better in our first year
Better off not knowing some things
It’s hard to think about
Nights when we thought, that it would last forever
You know, you know, you know

& please don’t say that you’re wanting me back
Coz I’ve heard it all before, so much I’ve lost track
I can’t go back to feeling like I did

Now the memories are stained
& it don’t add up
Thought I’d be begging for you back
You had me real fucked up
But I knew that there would always be an end
(But it came quicker than I thought it would)

I’ve been living in this hell
My mind playing tricks on me
I can’t ever seem to get a fucking break
It’ll be what it’s gonna be

I’m glad that you wish I was dead
It shows that you never really cared
Guess I’m just shocked though
But it’ll be what it’s gonna be