Viejo

You were a soldier and you were a poet,
You knew the struggle and you kept on going.
Never gave up on us, you never quit,
But somehow you couldn't deal with your own shit.
So I found myself dealing with this at home shit,
Wondering if everyone else dealt with their own shit.
So I just owned it, made it a home thing,
To deal with the demons inside of your soul and,
Maybe one day I'd be enough to fill the hole in.
Your heart and mind and make us whole again,
Be the happy home instead of the one that's broken.
Trauma and anxiety is where my mind was going.

I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily,
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.
I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily,
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.

I'm not gonna lie, there were some happy days,
That I wish were the only ones that ever took place.
But I cant erase the nights of terror and trauma,
The school nights I would stay up late with momma
Waiting in the living room for you to come home,
That's where issues of self worth took form.
The same ones you dealt with all of your life,
Is that why you ran from your kids and your wife?
Escape into the night, like it would solve it all,
But at the end of the day the family got the call.
I'm not gonna lie, it effects me to this day,
I love you so much and that's why I have to say
Why couldn't I put aside my damn pride?
And fix the broken piece left inside?!
You weren't perfect but you were mine,
Hope we get another chance to be better in the next
Life.

I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily,
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.
I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily,
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.

Dad, you weren't perfect but you were everything to me,
Even though you're no longer here I know that you're at (peace)

I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily, (yeah)
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.
I knew that I could never change you,
I knew that I could never ever save you.
Regardless I kept praying for you daily,
And the fact that you kept going back drove me
Crazy.