Weakened State

From the minute you saw it
By the time it left my mouth
I know you wouldn't want it
But I had to have it out
I saw your smile
I felt it
Now I just can't believe
There was no knowing deception underneath

All that time
Did it pass while you were looking back waiting?

I asked for the truth every time
And now the ugly details
Are stuck in my mind
And there's a premonition
I keep putting off
And the more time passes
The more I get soft
I'm standing up there
In a weakened state
And it's not great

All that time
Did it pass while you were looking back waiting?
Often I'm waiting on the one
That maybe won't come
Waiting

And I'm not saying anything
You think that I forgot
I'm not saying anything
But I'm thinking a lot