Pain
Verse 1:
Grew up with no brothers
No sisters
So witnessing the shit
I witnessed
I couldn't grip
No one to consort
With
Watched wwe
On live tv
When i was 3
Loved watching it
With daddy
Violence was always in
My life my dad made me
Watch horror movies
At a young age
And i started drawing violent
Images from three and up
Later on became an issue in school days
And school plays
Started becoming a danger to my peers
And always will because eventually
I would turn into the ten year old
Who wanted to kill
Mom and dad they were always arguing
While i was sitting alone playing
And playing silent
Because when they started to act
Violent it was like watching an intense
Movie
Unnecessary i dont think this kind
Of love should be tarnished
We already lost the harness
I dont wanna be dishonest
But when i describe these events
It feels like a present tense
Chorus:
I lost myself that night
I lost myself that night
To the past flashbacks
Verse 2:
Flashbang after flashbang i see myself in the mirror the memories hurt to think about
I want to scream and shout and tell
The world aloud that this
Is all on me naw this is all on you
My predictions were met with
Expectations i remember
From september to november
Shit is to brain dismembering
Seeing my father like dat
And seeing my mom committing to
The act
Funny when your mom is
Doing the act
And dad reacts seven to eight years later
By ending up in prison
I felt like i was prison 10 years later at 13 i had to deal with my moms bf who makes
Expectations trying to be poppa
I just tell him to get the fuck out my way
I dont like him and i never will and thats how its gunna stay
I know being a boy back than
Maturity was less equal to respect
But i dont respect an impersonator
Nor someone who causes stress and gives me anger fuck you drill Sargent
Chorus:
I lost myself that night
I lost myself that night
Memory of a child
Living life full of fright
Outro:
Coffee pot broken in pieces on the floor
Toys all over the floor
Dad on the floor scrambling
Mom swinging and yelling
Me crying saying my life is in pieces
Seeing my mom on the floor
And my dad beaten up think i have had enough