Entropy

Well
Failing upwards
Feigning structure
Strange but I needed something
For the constant stillness
Not religious
But I still keep a book of Numbers
For the added comfort it comes with
Pull me up when the sun hits
My POV, but it's 3:03
And I still feel like I ain't get no sleep (shit)
What is the matter
Was climbing the ladder
I slipped and hit all of the rungs
I don't know what happened
I can't find an answer
I just know that something went wrong
I stress more nowadays
About some things that I wish that I could paraphrase
About the small shit
I wish that I could get away
From the malaise of the days I can't separate
I wake up in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm doing alright
They saying that I clean up nice
But I don't wanna talk about me no more
I'm pacing in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm putting up a fight
They saying imma throw away my life
But I don't wanna think about it no more
I don't wanna think about it no more
Yeah
Conversations
Random strangers
Lack of acclimation to this new combination
Sleep deprivation
Dislocation from reality
I need an explanation
Too anxious to eat
Pits in my stomach
Slight shakes when I speak
Please don't judge me
Who being secluded could be so lovely
Who knew the repercussions would be so ugly
What is the matter
My meters been shattered
I'm stuck in this shadow on the wall
I don't know what happened
I don't have an answer
The truth is I'd rather not get involved
I cry more nowadays
About some things that I wish that I could paraphrase
About the small shit that didn't matter anyway
But still I'm here wondering how I got in this place
Cuz
I wake up in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm doing alright
They saying that I clean up nice
But I don't wanna talk about me no more
I'm pacing in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm putting up a fight
They saying imma throw away my life
But I don't wanna think about it no more
I don't wanna think about it no more
No escape from reality so I
Try to reshape what's in front of me
Center of attention help me please
Gotta get away from this space
I don't wanna make the same mistakes
Wake up in a different time and place
Take drugs just to compensate
It's getting kinda late
But they telling me it's only 8:00
It's my party so I gotta stay
(stay stay stay)
What is the problem
I'm all out of options
I feel like I'm losing control
Not quite at the bottom
But sinking in silence
Got nothing to keep me afloat
I really rather let it hit all at once
Here you say I don't talk enough
Rather than talk too much
To call my bluff
(Maybe)
Who am I to judge from what and what
(Crazy)
I wake up in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm doing alright
They saying that I clean up nice
But I don't wanna talk about me no more
I'm pacing in the middle of the night
But honestly I'm putting up a fight
They saying imma throw away my life
But I don't wanna think about it no more
I don't wanna think about it no more
(I don't wanna think about it no more)