Addicted To My Pain

Striking the match that burns me
Pouring more gasoline unto the flame
I'm to blame
I'm all alone and bleeding
And every self-inflicted wound in me
Am I addicted to my pain?

And I can't love
Without You here
Will You wash away
All my fear?
Addicted to my pain
Cause I can't see
And I can't feel
God, I'm praying none of this is real
Addicted to my pain

I am the judge and jury
I always sentence me
To be condemned
There's no amends
I hate with no conditions
Will I ever be forgiven
For my rage
And break out of this cage?

And I can't love
Without You here
Will You wash away
All my fear?
Addicted to my pain
Cause I can't see
And I can't feel
God, I'm praying none of this is real
Addicted to my pain

Take this guilt
This bitter rage
Keeping me
Locked in chains
Can You heal my heart?
Can You take this pain?
Will You wash away
All these things?

And I can't love
Without You here
Will You wash away
All my fear?
Addicted to my pain
Cause I can't see
And I can't feel
God, I'm praying none of this is real
Addicted to my pain
My pain