The Push Game

the daylight is awful dim with shudders pulled rim to rim;
i'm staring at written words
but their sounds will remain unheard
as i have not the strength to utter them
and have i known it all along, of this cowardice and envy?
and is it time that i move on, breaking free from all that's empty?
it's hard now to run this race
when there is no human face to call on in times of choice,
with no reassuring voice