Struggles

[Verse 1]
I’ve had enough of this drama shit lately
I know what people thinking of me and looking back at history
That I’m a emotional tired motherfucker recently
They find a past issue to run with and use it against me
It’s not even just irl it’s online Beef too
This is why I stay off social media just fuck you
I can’t say names because they think the whole world knows about them
Like I do this out of my mind of how I feel
They say it’s just a dark joke just chill
But no why would you say something thats affects personally and that’s real
You talk about my family the wrong way That shit could get you killed
Ive blocked you all because you won’t listen to me
I write paragraphs because you need to understand me
My Occupation will be returning back to me
Doesn’t make you superior if you’ve got responsibilities
We all have them so don’t be pointing the finger at me
When you think that’s the only thing have on me
Have any of you guys gone though grief?
Have any of you guys lost any sleep?
Have any of you guys thought about ending your life completely?
So Don’t judge me because of my mistakes
I fucked up but I’ll always try sorting issues anyway
Leave him or Her alone that’s they say
But on the other hand it’s always people that have a say
But they rather speak the truth behind there back
And say little white lies when they frontin on a nigga that’s that
I’ve pushed everyone away because I know most people weren’t right for me
It’s always yeah we cool and fuck the apologises
Awkward times when shit gets brought up
Having nostalgic beef again we all caught up
I’m not the enemy of anybody
I just wanted to be friends with everybody
But look they paint me out to the bad guy
They even tell it to people that I don’t even know me like why
They judge me before I even say anything
You guys just run with one sided arguments
There’s two sides of a story so don’t get it twisted
Dark humour yeah okay? How about being a dark place?
Staying up late thinking I should jump of my building or find a better knife to slit my wrists
You guys have all used me
I gave and I gave
But never any thank yous just hate
Remember the time I brought that thing?
Oh you forgot why doesn’t that surprise me
I think you want me out picture
You guys think let’s run over nice nigga
He’ll get emotional and he’ll die quicker
He’s already lost a lot of good friends
He’s a dickhead he doesn’t deserve anyone in the end
He’s a crazy nigga he’s a stupid nigga
He’s abusive,he’s a two faced horrible nigga
Is that what you guys wanted? Is that what you wanted me to say?
I’ve had enough of everyone putting me down
I’ve had enough of myself
I’ve had enough getting upset and overthinking in the night
I’ve had enough of everything
Man it’s unsettling to talk about it
But I wanted get this of my chest but I know none of you won’t give a shit about it
Im always there for them but never there for me
Who in this world ever makes time for me?
Nobody
I’m taking drugs on the low to help me
Call me whatever you want I’ve heard all before
Music is the only thing that lets me in the door
I listen to all types of shit on how I’m feeling around it
But nows the time to do something about it
I’m closing my life to everyone now
I’m not here for friends anymore no trust is found
If I ignore you or have you blocked least you know now
I’m tired of being hurt now