Numb

I wanna go to sleep and not wake up
I want a simple dress and no makeup
I wanna fight with you and not make up, my love
I've been like this for too long

I've always wanted what was out of reach
It's not your fault, the way you brainwashed me
And now I'm stranded under all this shame with no God
And no good luck, I'll never measure up

Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, wanna drink 'til I'm dumb

I wanna let you in and not be scared
I wanna change my mind, become a parent
I wanna laugh so hard my stomach hurts, oh
Wake up next to you in my t-shirt

I've never been much of an optimist
Then she screamed at me to take my meds
That still echoes back inside my head Every now and again
When I have trouble with love or with friends

Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, wanna drink 'til I'm dumb

I didn't appreciate my youth when I was young
Too unsafe and far too focused on growing up
Tightened belts, so suck it up and bite my tongue
Burn the pages telling me I'm not enough
And I don't wanna settle down, but I'd like to fall in love
I don't wanna look back and feel unadventurous, oh
I wanna see my life with no regrets
But it's too late for that

Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb
Some nights, wanna drink 'til I'm dumb
Some nights, I'm a little bit numb