So Lost

At last I am free
(So lost, know what I'm sayin')
I can hardly see in front of me
(I'm tryin' to get to the top)
I can hardly see in front of me
(I just need some sorta direction baby
You know what I'm sayin') at last I am free
(Yup, feel like I'm goin'
In circles right now)
I can hardly see in front of me
(Lord help me)
I can hardly see in front of me

I'm feelin' like I'm losin' my mind
I'm walkin' blind
I'm just rollin' no destination
No point or time
I'm lost, tryna find out which way is up
And get what I can get before my days is up
My life was rough
But fuck it shit it could've been worse
I'm free, when I could be in jail or a hearse
Most folks look at my lifestyle
And say that I'm blessed
They see my smiles they don't see
All the heartache and the stress
They don't see our hoes and foes
Pretend to be your friend
They love you and down for you
'til your cash flow in
When shit switch they split quick to
Treat you like a stranger
Then your hangin' like a hanger and
Give you the middle finger
Like you done somethin' wrong cause you
Don't provide 'em with drugs
Or do the shit you used to do
Like payday weigh in the club
I'mma show y'all some love if
You don't love me
It's fair exchange or nothin'
Ain't no robberies i'm so lost

At last I am free
I can hardly see in front of me
I can hardly see in front of me
(I'm so lost) at last I am free
I can hardly see in front of me
I can hardly see in front of me

I saw it a million times
Niggas balled and fall
I witness boys on they feet
Kneeled down and crawl
I know nothin' lasts forever
Everything must end
Losers live for the day and
The future planners win
But at the same time, niggas grind and shine
We live in danger who's to say
Tomorrow we won't be dyin'
What's the use of workin' hard
If you can't display
What's the use of bein' a baller
If you can't go play
It's a lotta ups and downs, smiles and frowns
One day you're here the next day you're gone
I used to dream of gettin'
Money rockin' diamonds that blind
Nowadays I wish and pray, for a peace of mind
I was safer when I was broke
I had to dodge less snakes
When you got some
You don't know who's real or fake
Every day my heart aches from
The drama that unfolds
This world cold, I'm tryna find my soul
I'm so lost

I'm tryna stay focused, keep both eyes open
Stay on top before my career starts slopin'
Ain't no time for jokin' no time for chokin'
They wanna see me broken I
Know what they hopin'
Writin' rhymes 'til my pen starts smokin'
Makin' sure hot lines are spoken
I got the token
To the game, and it's my job to claim
The fortune and the fame
That the industry bring
It's simple and plain
Those that work hard share profit
Nobody can stop it you can't
Stop 'til you got it
I'mma do what I wanna do
Live like I wanna live
Spend what I wanna spend yield
What I wanna yield
That's how it is I'm controllin' my fate
And shinin' on those who hate
To see me live great i'm snatchin' my plate
Takin' my steak and eatin' good
I suggest you do the same and
Get the fuck out the hood i'm so lost