Embarrassed

Look at me for a second
No, seriously, look at me
Honestly, ask yourself lookin' at me
Do you really think that there is any
Way possible for you to embarrass me?
Look at me! Do you really think
I care what you think?
Do you really think I care what you say?
Look at me!

I'm embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and future
Endeavors to clear my name
I'm embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and future
Endeavors to clear my name

I'm embarrassed (why?)
I'm embarrassing (what?)
I'm an embarrassment (why?)
And it's all adding up

I'm so preoccupied with
Self-indulgency to see what you provided me
I fully appreciate your offerings
The awful things in life are lessened
By lessons of self-acceptance
I want blessings i regret keeping a distance
For future reference over
Ridges are preventable, i know the traps
Humanity as a whole or we'll collapse
Now close the gaps
We dwell on what we share, what separates us
We're all different
But what makes us a unit?
Music is a universal language
So is anguish, pain, and torment
Balance of emotions
It shows a happiness have upon us
No more pickin' sides
One without the other is impossible
(Uh, forgot what I was supposed to say)
They call it bipolar, unstable conditions
They got me lookin' over my shoulder
The book that I wrote ya was
Meant to move the time slower
But it was spent cookin' my mind's motor
Now I'm older

I'm embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and future
Endeavors to clear my name
Embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and
Future endeavors to future

I'm embarrassed (why?)
I'm embarrassing (what?)
I'm an embarrassment (why?)
And it's all addin' up

It was in the cards that
I’m to be forever haunted
Hip hop is slowly but surely
Becoming the Big Brother
I never wanted homie to hurt me
Purely to mic
Still my head is astonished with sonics
Aesthetics
Poetics and knowledge, some polished rhetoric
Everything has it's negative
Conscience consciously at it
Constantly get rid of the
Rigorous repetitive movements
Been better than you since
It's easier to talk to you about
It than to do it
Here I am, center of the spotlight
They all drunk and smilin'
Waiting for their cockfight
"Time to entertain" says the clock of life
So I became the freaky kid I'm starin' at
Even though you know it's not right
Embarrassment, it's in between
Insecurity and arrogance
I'm a machine with a clarity
I can barely grip
So if I seem red in the face
It's not 'cause I feel out of place
It's just that

I'm embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and future
Endeavors to clear my name
Embarrassed by my past actions
And even more ashamed
By my present thoughts and future
Endeavors to kill the breakdown

And I can yell all day, all night, all day
I still doubt that you would
Hear a word I say
And I can drive all night, all day, all night
But if you stay with me
You'll never get it right

I was never much for
The self-driven skepticism
I was that cat that let
Distraction affect my vision
You were the kitten that was screaming
Cover up the sound of landing or crashing
However it was going down
But it's goin' down, it's goin' fast
And I have no doubts about whether
Or not it's gonna last
Fill the glass, tilt your head back
Let it trickle through the throat to where
You hide your giggles and your laughs
I'll wait
(I'm waitin') to find the correct
Departure time (departure time)
Shine my eyes (shine my eyes) to keep
The lies from climbin'
Up inside the mind (inside the mind)
Some belong to you and some belong to me
But none of them escape
The contemplation necessary
You can't scare me
(uh uh) but you can keep it buried
Put your hands on the circle, try to steer me
And now that I sing
(sing) all of my songs for singing (singing)
I'm guessing that it's just a test to
See how strong I can bring it