This is me.
I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue
The end is close I feel it to the core when I play these fucking chords
I wake up in the morning, just another fucking day
I'm feeling like a dog cause I'm about to start to stray
Or maybe I should be driving on the highway far away
I need to stop consuming or one day they'll say ''he passed away"
Giving my mind a break, so take me anywhere just take me far away from here
Sometimes I ask myself what kind of person I turned out to be
Cause I love money, liquor, drugs and all banalities
Don't get me wrong, there are two guys living inside of me
The one that's clean, that cares for you and gives you honesty
I try to be best version of me, and yeah, exactly, I'm talking family
The one that's funny, crazy, witty and just a little bit silly
One thing I truly wanna say to my father It's I'm sorry
I may be not enough for you
A lazy fuck up, got no excuse
To me you're everything and that's the fucking truth
I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue
The end is close I feel it to the core when I play these fucking chords
I wake up in the morning, I sit up right in my bed
A lot of thoughts I got, whats going on inside my head
No hangover cause you know that I'm a little pothead
And from the window comes a light that looks like kinda red
I pop a Xan cause I just start stress
and yeah, I know, I should be using less
The excesses got me, but I skip my thoughts
My demons haunting but I need stop the drugs
'Member that day at the beach
Walking around under the sun and then we kissed
I thought that we were meant together then we flipped
You were like a drug to me to me, every-time I sleep I see you strip
I wish you happiness, I wish you find a real good kid
Disrespect is outta table, that's something we already did
Faded, writing like a poet everything I've lived
Faded, writing like a poet everything I've lived
I apologize once again cause I'm not what you want me to
I tried so hard to make you all proud but that's long, long overdue
The end is close I feel it to the core when I play these fucking chords
I tried to prove that you raised a young king
Sorry momma that was as well what I think
I know you don't like the poison I put inside my body
The only thing that calmes my nerves and gives me glory
The only thing that calmes my nerves and gives me glory