What a Fool

[Verse One]
Yo I was called a called a troubled youth from the courts
Before the folks divorced I used to backflip off the porch
With nickels and dimes stashed deep
Spend my nights creeping through your backyard while you sleep
Tryna’ take a peek through your window, vandalizing shit
Smoking indo thinking yo I’m so discrete
With dirty [?] on my feet
Heartless in the summer heat tryna’ catch rep on your street
With tags galore, cops knocking on my door
Had me tripping with sweat dripping out of every pore
I used to call [?] for legal advice
I heard Wesley used to bone a bitch named Valerie Spice
I used to hate on everything except for rap and weed
My momma used to tell me I was a different type of breed
I can’t believe the foolish shit I did as a kid, flippin' my lid
I can never justify the shit that I did

[Hook]
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
And say what a fool, what a fool I’ve been

[Verse Two]
Yo high school sucked
I was a loner and a stoner
With a boner for disorder
Couldn’t get across the border
Dropped down grade 9 as my anger inclined
Something was infecting my mind constantly to remind
Me not to be like my old man with bottle in hand
Go sniff another gram goddamn I don’t understand
But I got smarter every year
Selling rock and starter gear
That pipe bomb almost made me deaf in both fucking ears
I always thought that being cool was so damn important
Since I felt that everybody else thought that I couldn’t afford it
With hand me down jeans, no hope and shattered dreams
Violent scenes, my mother screams, eating pork and beans
Nobody means to make mistakes in their lives
But without fucking up a couple times how you gon’ do right
I like the way that shit turned out for me the way that it did
Flipping my lid I ain’t gotta’ justify the shit that I did

[Hook]
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
I just hate myself
And say what a fool, what a fool I’ve been