Feels

I don't wanna feel no more
Because I'm losing this war
And I'm breaking down every chance I get
No matter how I fight it
No more
I don't wanna feel again
I'm so sure
I'm never going back again
"Don't you cry"
"Let's see a smile"
You don't realize
What it feels like
You can't see through a smile that looks just fine
With nobody by your side but your loneliness
And nobody wants to fix something broken
You don't know what it feels like
It feels like
Heart is pumping blood at double time
What I never know is
How much I can take of all this
You couldn't take my pain if you wanted too
But will you help me through this
I need someone to help me through this
Could you see my face if you closed your eyes
Like it's bright out
Would you look out
Would you pull me out of the underground
Or would you
Leave me in the dark all by myself
Just like everybody else
I don't wanna fight it
But I'm not gonna give in to the silence in my head
Should I pray
Should I plead
Cus I really hate to beg
And I've tried everything but a stupid little med
In my head
Can't get out of my head
All the memories I dread
I don't wanna feel it
Mmm
In my head
Too many feelings in my head
I can't get out of my head
Mmm
Mmm