WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?!
Why do I?! Why do I do this to myself?!
Why do I?! Why do I do this to myself?!
Why can't I?! Give it up? Let it go?
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Four, three, two, one
I shouldn't do it, I do it, I will be ruined
I'm screwin' myself, I'm clueless, I blew it
I shouldn't follow
My mind, 'cause it's racin' and pacin'
Devices I'm chasin', adjacent to desolation
We all know
I'm fucked, gambled thousands of bucks
Down on my luck, in the dirt, now I'm stuck
Hold up, give me my turn, to play with fire
Get burned had this outcome before, I
Guess I didn't learn, no
I shouldn't smoke it, it's useless
But if I see it, i do it
A fuckin' loser, a doofus, I saw my future
It's stupid look vegetated and gruesome
It's conducive to bruises
A veggie plate 'cause it's fruitless
But here we go again
Spent a wonder to snag it and
I just opened the baggy
Yo, this is gonna be magic
I get my grip then I grab it
I twist it, lick it and
Wrap it, I'm not addicted, it's habit
Flick the Bick and it's flashin'
And then I get a call
From daycare, my daughter's pukin'
Need daddy i'm paranoid and I shower
I'll be there in an hour
I hear the devil, he chortle, fuck
I hope I look normal
Feel like I fell through a portal
Got in my chevy and sped
I think I need some meds
Is my wife mad we met?
How my eyes? Are they red?
How my future is? Dead?
Can't get out of my head
Can I be you instead? Lay awake in my bed
Look in the mirror and said
Why do I?! Why do I do this to myself?!
Why do I?! Why do I do this to myself?!
Why can't I?! Give it up? Let it go?
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Four, three, two, one
I can't let no one but me
Down this road down this rabbit hole
I can't let i can't bring you
I do do doody do