i miss the love

I miss my parents house
Every sunday when my neighbors cook out
I open up the window
Let the smell flow
Yeah
It's a trigger though
I still do it every week
It's a glimpse of them
c glimpse of the old me
It kind of hurts to see
Cause i know it's just a memory
I know it'll never be the same

I hate you cause of what you've done
But i still love you cause i miss the love
I should thank you for who i've become
But i can't cause i miss who i was
Sometimes
Wish i coulda grown up on my own time
cn adult by like age 9
Do you even think about the kind of shit that did to my mind?
Yeah you know that shits not right

Only part with no drums so it needs to be bold
I miss laying on my mommas lap
Every night before bed
Every night
Yeah
She was my best friend

You always preached
More love more happiness
But the older that i got
It became more obvious
That what you wanted wasn't me
No it's really fuckin not

The perfect daughter, pretty face, quiet mouth
Is lady like, wears dresses, never doubts you
c daughter who makes everything about you
You come first i come next thats what i found
N i know that you know what you do to me
You play this game
N you don't see it as cruelty
Your morals got fucked up
I'm not sure when
But now you're just stuck

I hate you cause of what you've done
But i still love you cause i miss the love
I should thank you for who i've become
But i cant cause i miss who i was