The Entire History of You

I'm finding myself less and less to decline
Something to feel, something to taste
To let go of my mind
Through drug abuse and all the pain
I know that I have changed
To be just like you
To be just like you

Every single time I think of you
I can't help but get upset
Constant, disgusted outrageous and nauseous
You know that I'm not sleeping well
But you don't fucking care
My dreams are depleting
Just tainted and lonely

I'm sorry that it's come to this
My greatest fear that I couldn't resist
It made so much sense to do what you did
But telling me "you're okay" is the opposite
I wish I could say what you did to me
Without sounding like a hypocrite
I just can't do this anymore
I'm sick of being ignored

I'm finding myself less and less to decline
Something to feel, something to taste
To let go of my mind
Through drug abuse and all the pain
I know that I have changed
To be just like you
To be just like you

Take me away to a place that can't hurt me
Take me away to a place that won't leave me
Take me away from here
I'm coming down
I feel I'm the poison that's killing you
So sweet, so selfish
Goodbye

I can't look at you

I feel so sick
So sick of who I am
So sick of fucking trying
I don't want to pretend
That I'm okay with this
I'm killing myself
Just to fix what you've broken
Fix what you've broken

You've taken all of me
I hope you like what you've stolen
I'm getting withdrawals
My head is so cluttered
What have I become?
I've never been so disgusted
You know who you are
You know who you are
Why won't you help me?
Why won't you look at me?
I'm the one that you refuse to see

I don't know what to say to you
You were never there
You were never there
Why won't you look at me?
Why are you scared of me?