Getting There

I been thinking that lately
Man, fuck it I'm going crazy
There's bottles that's all around me but searching them ain't the same
See
I been on the road to finding myself
Reminding myself there's a better me inside of myself
But when I think what I created out of sheer boredom
I put some effort in my dreams and start to move toward them
It's like a
Clue to myself
I was meant for this
You ain't know that I was serious
Well you just fooling yourself
I'm cool for whatever if it ain't misery
I'm shutting down my ex when she start to show that she missing me
Forreal I don't know why
I guess that's just the way I am
And I ain't know how else to tell her so I hope she hear this jam
But man
Can't let it get me down
Nothing stopping me from finding my sound
I'm feeling better than before and maybe confident even
Top of the evening with the fellas
I could careless who could top what I'm doing

Getting there man I'll make it
Give me a second to see if I'll take the chance or I wreck it
But really I'm feeling wreck less
Don't know if that's a good thing but get it off my checklist
Or my chest if I'm talking bout my confessions
I'm guessing it's time to fess up
Hoping that I don't mess up
It's a blessing that I am breathing
I shouldn't be
Tried to take my own life
Truthfully
On a new wave, turning over a new leaf
Making music for people that never knew me
I hope don't believe everything that you do see
And truthfully if you do I ain't blaming you
Life just isn't training you right
It's alright
And if you wanna know what keeps me going
It's knowing that no one can ever make feel like I ain't growing
I'm glowing
Cause I'm a star
Or I'm getting there

Told em imma make it
Ain't no mistaken
Ain't waiting
Ain't faking
There's nothing out there breaking me down
I'll go another round
They wanna clown, and imma show em up
Out the water, blow em up
Think I'm only playing
Ain't saying shit to amuse you
Must've got me confused who
You think you listening to
Someone envisioning you
At the top of they pedestal
I'm making a better school
Getting there, I see it
Make me believe in a reason that I'm breathing
And conceiving
Ideas unrelated to treason
Know that this is my season
Hope you getting the meaning
Take it how you receive it, nigga
Slow down, let the beat breathe
These images of a future just always seem to tease me
The outcome ain't always pleasing
But I come out cheesing
Look at what I'm achieving
Don't know if anybody ever cared
But I just keep it in my mind that I'm getting there
Don't know if anybody cares
But Imma keep it in my mind, I'm getting there