Dark Days

Devil always found work for my idle hands
Caught me by surprise but it made me understand
That the kind of a man I thought I was
Was a vision not to trust

I just wish to fall in love again
To love someone now that I understand
Who I am, who I don't want by my side
So much shit I've figured out inside

I can't say there aren't dark days
But that's something I'd never want on my mother face
Sometimes it seems that I won't be here
To get old, be happy, maybe get a kid
Pretty sure I've used this line
But I feel like I've turned back the time
Seems like this shit happens all over again
how many times I have to live to understand

Not saying I own the truth
Life is learning and that's what I try to do every day,
Every month life changes and so do I
I just hope there's some truth for me to find

I could never pretend that opinions didn't bother me
Reputation can't be based on a single memory
Maybe I'm just paranoid
And these thoughts are just filling up a void

I can't say there aren't dark days
But that's something I'd never want on my mother face
Sometimes it seems that I won't be here
To get old, be happy, maybe get a kid
Pretty sure I've used this line
But I feel like I've turned back the time
Seems like this shit happens all over again
how many times I have to live to understand

I'm not the first to say
That everyone goes away
Either I made them go
Or life chose so

I can't say there aren't dark days
But that's something I'd never want on my mother face
Sometimes it seems that I won't be here
To get old, be happy, maybe get a kid
Pretty sure I've used this line
But I feel like I've turned back the time
Seems like this shit happens all over again
how many times I have to live to understand