Lost Love

You don't know what I'm tryna do here
You don't know what I'm gonna say
You don't know what I've really been through
Not last week or even today
It's not a matter of what's wrong or right
It's not a matter of who's bold
I tried my best just to make it work
Or at least that's what I've been told
This sounds like The Divine Femenine
Hope that's not too goddamn threatening
Stream of concoiusness
You know what's on my mind
I really hope someday that you'll fucking find
What it feels like to be free
At least what it's like according to me
And It's evident that you're heaven sent
You know, you to me
You know I can't repent
Without us I feel so alone
You never made this house feel like a home
Get a tattoo or two just to feel real
I thought that we really were the real deal
Bad situation like Bradley Beal
A for two is now a for one meal
I can't live going solo and
You know I'm coming through for you
You don't know what I'm tryna do here
You don't know what I'm gonna say
You don't know what I've really been through
Not last week or even today
It's not a matter of what's wrong or right
It's not a matter of who's bold
I tried my best just to make it work
Or at least that's what I've been told
Now I think I've made my point
Time to sit back and roll myself a joint
For the memories now in jeopardy
Just exemplary of your treachery
Making me second guess myself
You put yourself always on the top shelf
Just out of reach just like a leech
And such a breach just to beseech
You make me want to scream
Why can't you let me have my dream
Trashing my apartment
You have a hand in that department
All this just to say
You used to always make my day
I wish we could go back to how we were
But now that's just all a blur
Woah, it's just a blur
I wish we could be how we were
Woah, lost love
You're trying to take me away
Oh baby, not this way
And surely not today
You think you still can win
But I'm yet to begin
A place where we don't want in
I'm with you, It's a better life
You know this pain, it hurts like a knife
I don't want to hear from you
There's better things to do
Well goddamn, ain't that true
I miss you everyday
I love you everyway
But this lost love, it had to happen
And you know that's why I started rappin'
And now I'm on my own
Feeling better now
Cuz I've fucking grown
Don't ask me how
But I miss the fun
I ain't gonna run
Cuz I'm fully done
You're gonna miss me
But this is how it had to be
Before I leave you behind today
I've got one more thing I gotta say
I think you know what I'm gon' do here
I think you know what I'm gon' say
You really know what I've been though
This past week and even today
It's not a matter of what's wrong or right
It's just a matter of who's bold
I tried my best just to make it work
Or at least that's what I've been told