Fulfilment Well

Whats it like to be able to take chances at life
Soon as I walk up to get my share my hands are tied
And every cell in my body wants to stop me from going one step further
Past imprinted on my soul my legs are shaking every time I'm walking on my own
And I've come a long way but I'm stuck in this loop
Coming back to the same fears
And crying the same tears
I wish it was easier

I bet I wasn't always this way
What would it feel like to say whatever I wanna say
I wonder all that I would do
If I didn't have the reasons I do
Would I make art that feels just right
Feel free to be all of my
Messy and imperfect, golden and colourful self
Would I fill my fulfilment well
Messy and imperfect, golden and colourful self
I wish I could fill my fulfilment well

So many battles being fought in this head
Two sides of my brain
One would see the bright future ahead
But that's not the one that wins
It goes like this
I take two steps in the direction that feels right
Fear comes along and I try to see the light
And when its time for the show the worst thoughts would start to cross my mind
And it seems like my only option is to hide

I bet I wasn't born this way
What would it feel like if I could live like I would before the heartbreaks
Would I make art that feels just right
Feel free to be all of my
Messy and imperfect, golden and colourful self
Would I fill my fulfilment well
Messy and imperfect, golden and colourful self
Would I fill my fulfilment well

Thoughts I fought so hard coming back let me go I have way too many scars already
Thoughts I fought so hard coming back let me go I have way too many scars already
Thoughts I fought so hard coming back let me go I have way too many scars already
I so wanna know what it feels like
Feeling free to be all of my messy, imperfect
Struggling to be honest, golden and colourful self
I wish I could fill my fulfilment
Thoughts I fought so hard coming back let me go I have way too many scars already