​passion, obsession.

[Chorus]
Baby, I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna fucking go
I wanna fucking smoke, God I feel so fucking low

[Verse]
If there's really a heaven, right now I won't get in
I think I need a medic, my chest is caving in
What's the point of living right? I won't make it out alive
I know one day it'll come but right now is not the time
I can't slow down now, it'd be wrong to hold back now
I'm not at that goal right now
But I see the fucking signs on the road right now
Got enough fuel, hit the fucking throttle
I know what to do when I'm at the bottom
Take a fucking bull, mix it with bottle
Put me in type of mood I know will get me out of
That mindset where I cannot deal with my stress
In my head, I don't wanna see that text
"I think it's best if we just end this"
All I think about is death, I wanna fucking end it
But I can't and I won't, say I do but I don't
What to do now? I don't know
I been feeling too down, I might let it go

[Chorus]
Baby, I'm so awful but you should know I care
I don't know where I oughta but I wanna disappear
I'm losing all my hope, I wanna fucking go
I wanna fucking smoke, God I feel so fucking low