Paranoia

I don't wanna die in a fire alone
Never recognised by the eyes I devote
All my fucking time tryna smile at home
I been hearing sirens rising

Danger alert, put a price on my head
Paid by the ones that I know want me dead
Just a nobody writing lines in his bed
What if they see I'm lying

Can you call this a life?
Living so anxiously, I find it hard to breathe
I am the product of imagination meets so complicated
But thinking too much bout deterioration
The hatred inside is just fright in disguise
Hoping that I'm not the one that's despised
Man, I just pray they don't notice me
Looking my way cause they wanna dispose of me

I fear you
You fear me
Maybe we both crazy
I see truth
See through me
At the gates of Hades
Nothing new
Nothing deep
Everything is hazy
Nothing new
Nothing deep

I don't know a childhood
Doing what a child would
If they didn't learn about safety, fight
Standing where my mom stood
Looking like a lost hood rat staring back at the empty, eyes
Will I ever know what it's like?
Will I ever see them in the right kinda light?
The fact that doesn't it upset her makes me think like whether I'll ever know better

I fear you
You fear me
Maybe we both crazy
I see truth
See through me
At the gates of Hades
Nothing new
Nothing deep
Everything is hazy