Strong Friends

[Verse 1]
She said, can you sit and keep him company
I gotta work and it hurts to see him grieving, nothing’s comforting
The door close, I lay there, blank stare, gazing through my own thoughts
Wishing I could doze off, cause how I’m feeling
Hard to put into words
Embarrassed or ashamed
Felt alone in all my pain
Kinda hard to be explained how I’m sick of myself
Why the fuck she even love me, all I think to myself
Why she still care, still here after I blamed her
For all my problems
Had the nerve to say I forgave her
For not being who I thought I wanted
Haunted by my fantasies
Reality I’m tender-hearted, slipping out of sanity
You ever feel broken at the end of your rope
Feel betrayed by the different ways you used to cope
My strengths turned to weakness, my demons are my secrets
I don’t want to tell, fuck I look like needing help
My shoulder’s bad, the burden, that’s a blessing turned cursed
Took a stillborn to see my own rebirth
I wouldn’t know that til later now I’m mention the [?]
Gripped a fifth and (ayoo, yo, are you good bro?)

[Chorus]
You might want to check on your strong friend
Seeing if they strong in the long end
Might see if they struggling
If they need love and a helping hand

[?] the roadmap up to my soul, you’re the [?]

[Verse 2]
I’m on the bridge, on the ledge with the gun holding
With them pills, slit the wrist, with the noose folding
Got the smiles got the jokes but inside crying
Staying high, staying big, yet inside dying
Isolated in a crowd of people
Voices in my head speaking pure evil
If I start to speak they talking medication
I need a vacation, twist up with meditation
What’s wrong with me?
Thought I was stronger now I’m feeling weak
Ain’t really here, can’t really eat
Never used words like depressed or stressed
It was either you was living or you facing death
Answer my ghost and heal the hurt lurking
Central nervous system tapped and it ain’t working
Resilience in the face of odds
The complexity of sorrow got me praising God
My weaponized skin tone got me unarmed
My unanswered prayers kept me unharmed
Through a circle, never landed on an angle
Tried to jump, I got caught up in a tangle

[?] you took my people, oh
Used my skin, my skin
To try [?]
In another sequel

[Chorus]
You might want to check on your strong friend
Seeing if they strong in the long end
Might see if they struggling
If they need love and a helping hand
(x2)

[?] the roadmap up to my soul