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I think I'm losing a friend
never thought that you'd feel like the end
all these messages sent
keep hitting unkempt dead ends
I can't comprehend
how u decide which way light bends
it's just the things u do
the way u fight friends, you're a godsend
can't remember all the things we said but,
I remember all the times u left me wondering about your health, and if you'd ever come back home
trying to run to you but,
I'm wrapped up in darkness and
stepping in glass
developing
negatives
to make something last
Chicago 99, a house has stood the test of time
suicide is painless no one told you about the homicides
"Keep your head up valentine, there's so much more to this afterlife
besides all of the bitter bugs festering inside your mind"
it's not like I haven't been here before
lost friends to centrism and image boards
I just want to cut room for the moon to show
I just want to cut loose to live and grow old, but
like years painting sun beams
shadows tear concrete in shape
as for my heartbeat
it breaks and beats like a rave
water fills up my lungs
echoes of carillon
ripples through my spine
distorted view left behind
in spite of all the good times
wounds healing despite the lies
I can't seem to fight back I
thought we'd exist alongside
but I'm drowning in a past live
downing this formaldehyde
broken amber shards inside
keepsakes of a broken life
like years painting sun beams
shadows tear concrete in shape
as for my heartbeat
it breaks and beats like a rave
Chicago 99, a house has stood the test of time
suicide is painless no one told you about homicides
"Keep your head up valentine, there's so much more to this afterlife
besides all of the bitter bugs festering inside your mind"
colourless skies cloudy mind, there's no time to realise
circuitous life, another time, history is just another rhyme
"Please come back, back to life. I swear I didn't mean to try
please don't leave like Edwards covered up in pantomime"
I guess it's just too much
for a heart devoid of love
to lose someone they trust
to lose someone they trust
this house is built by us
from reality to dust
where are you?