Better Off

Thinking now, I've got nothing
That's really worth living for
Longing for something
So much it became a part of
The way that I'm talking
The air all around I'm breathing
Whoever says I can make it
is wrong, I just want to be left alone
With thoughts well known
I had a dream where
I had chased away the clouds
The weight of my feelings
Finally stopped letting me down
The hope lost its meaning
And never could heal me
Cause I don't believe in magic now
I'm better off without
All I do is survive and
Keep journals of all I'm writing
My world is my silence
I hide behind my compliance
Why should I be trying
I was let down more times
Then I was loved
No longer defiant
I know best how to write another song
I had a dream where
I had chased away the clouds
The weight of my feelings
Finally stopped letting me down
The hope lost its meaning
And never could heal me
Cause I don't believe in magic now
I'm better off without
I shouldn't be sorry, but I am
Cause I don't know how to change myself
I feel irrelevant a lot
The last thing I need is people
Naming reasons why I should be alive
When I want to make my breathing stop
I had a dream where
I had chased away the clouds
The weight of my feelings
Finally stopped letting me down
The hope lost its meaning
And never could heal me
Cause I don't believe in magic now
I'm better off without
I had a dream where
I had chased away the clouds