Distance, Distant

I drink some more and then I’ll go to sleep
Maybe in the morning I’ll have something to eat
But today I ate an apple and some cheese
I miss my hair when it was blue
Before I dyed it this even darker blue
It looks strange and I can’t stand my own reflection

It feels much easier to hate myself
When I have no one around who loves who I am
Because I feel guilty for hating who I am

I don’t wanna be distant
But I can’t handle this distance
Baby please give me a sign that you still want me here

I promise you that I’m not drunk
I slept too long, there’s nothing wrong
But I can’t stand the feeling that you don’t want to be near me
So I’ll take another, let me get away from what I hate

And now they’re making fun of me
I accidentally threw up on her coat
Baby please give me a sign that you still want me here

God my breath stinks, I need to brush my teeth
Maybe I shouldn’t have had that drink
Maybe I shouldn’t have gone out at all
What a stupid idea