Ghost, Dust

You said I was nothing but I wanna be something to me
So I sat in the back seat and watched as your friends watched me leave
At the kitchen table under chandelier
I couldn’t stomach the idea that you could disappear
So I let you go before you had the chance

And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
My best friend said to say goodbye to him before he goes
And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I stayed inside rather than, so I guess we’ll never know

And nothing feels left out when it’s in my brain
If I don’t let it out, it can just waste away
Out of sight, out of mind, to my friends I’m okay
But when nothing feels right I can just waste away
My skin bears the marks that I’ve given up twice
When it’s all left to me, better hope I’m alright
And later that night when my friend lost his life
And I couldn’t continue to help in his fight

What the fuck am I supposed to do?
You said I couldn’t care for you
I know I shoulda been there for you
But it’s too late to say that I’m sorry

“I hope you’re okay, I hope you’ll be fine without the feeling of having yeah, me in your life”
Is what I hoped you woulda said if I heard his last words
But I know deep in my heart that it woulda been a curse
That we’re gonna die out, yeah I’m gonna die alone
I don’t deserve any friends, I don’t deserve to have a home
Engraved in my stone, yeah, when all this is done
Please write out for me, out for me
“I hope you had fun with it all”

You said you wanted me to go
I said I wanted you at home
Why can’t you wish that I was well
Without banishing me to hell?
I wish that I could say goodbye
Because I abandoned your side
Whenever you needed me most
Maybe you’ll see me as a ghost

But baby please cus I don’t know
Where you, where’d you go that’ll take me home
I just wanna be right next to you
Because I know that it must be true
If you were to say that you wouldn’t die
Baby would you please just please just try
Not to die for me, for me, for me, for me, for me, for me!

And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
My mother said to say goodbye to her before I go
And oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I felt too ashamed to confront, but she’ll never know

In a perfect world, there is nothing left of mine or of yours
We’re just dust in the sky, the debris passing by

You are not a kid anymore
For sake of conversation, I'd hope that you understand
You are not a kid anymore