These Christmas Lights Will Haunt Me Until I Die

[Verse 1]
It’s been a long ass week and a half here without you
Tomorrow marks one month that I’ve been here without you
Feels like I’m the only one who’s fighting all my rejects
Which makes it hurt much more cus people never seem to forget

[Verse 2]
That I cannot help myself, I made the same mistake
I ripped my arms to shreds and bled out in the sink
If I could have my way, oh that would be the end
Because there’s nothing you can do for me, my friend

[Verse 3]
That would change my mind, I want to die
I hate this life, thеre’s nothing going for me anymore
I gеt no peace of mind, no closure, I crave
Something, give me something more than “I don’t know”

[Verse 4]
The snow falls endlessly, this eternal winter’s tearing me apart
I take it back already, throw me away
The last time that you saw me, I had overdosed and couldn’t move
God I want to kill myself so I don’t have to think about it anymore

[Outro]
These Christmas lights will haunt me until I die