The One At Fault

(Verse 1)
Where am I at?
Where is my mind at?
Lookin' at some ass hat
Wanting my goods and all that
Sayin' no alone in his room
Starting to feel the coming doom
Wondering what he'll do soon
Causing this pain that will consume
All of my waking thoughts
And my thoughts are all that I got
But mom and dad said to not
Date older men who say are hot
But I wouldn't listen
Nah Nah I couldn't even listen

(Crying sound effect)

(Verse 2)
Where did my heart go?
Wondering why I can't rechart no
Wishing to find innocents so I won't
Feel like shit when he says don't
Tell anyone about what he just did
But I'm just a kid who wishes they did
Say what happened but then hе got rid
Got rid of me sayin I should have hid
Cause thеn I'd be dead and alone
Putting a bullet in my mind blown
But I can't cause I know I can't atone
For this sin of which is my own
That's how I feel all the time now
He's saying it my fault now
But if it's my own fault how!?

(Hook)
I always wonder what I did
Thinking I was just a kid
Thinking I could change it
Thinking I deserved that hit

(Verse 3)
Where did my life go?
Where did my whole damn life go!
I went to church thinking they'd know
But that man made me his own
Why do I feel oh so alone
Why do I keep asking myself that
Why is it they enter dreams and inhabit
Them every night like it's their's damn it
Why am I treated like their slut
Why am I always the problem?
Why am I always on the bottom?
Why do I scream in a silent hum?
Feels like I'm on the run
From their evil idea of fun
Cause now I feel like I'm done
Like my life needs to be undone
Should I end my existence
Instead of trying to show resistance?

(Hook)
I always wonder what I did
Thinking I was just a kid
Thinking I could change it
Thinking I deserved that hit

(Outro)
Why am I still here?
Is it for some greater purpose?
Dear god why do I suffer?
Is it my fault or is it not
And if it is should I be dead?
And if not should they be?
I don't know
Please someone help me