Pain 2022

Hoping off the plane im in the 6 now
Finally got some time to really sit down
Self reflecting my thoughts never felt respected
My momma said this the life i wanted but the one im rejecting
My shawty the one i needed but the one i neglected
I feel the the pain for every reason its that i expected
I feel like i could never leave it im just that invested
cnd now you might be leaving and I've grown obsessive
Misc boxes is where my lifes at
Sending messages like why i even type that
cnxiety on 10 cause who know what you gon type back
cll I know I just gotta live with it just like that
Grateful for the pains I caused myself
Back against the wall I did it all myself
No one reaching out that's all I felt
Got me wishing I could call myself
Everybody talking like they know me
The person you met before thats the old me
Misguided
Writing bars about the flyest whips but never been inside it
Losing a lot of friends I didn't vibe with
csking if I'm there but never been invited
My thoughts loud but I live in silence
They say pressure makes uhh
But these is different diamonds
Tryna switch the climate
Be on a different island
You know the vibes we just yell it out
They know the name make ‘em spell it out
Them Three letters got em shook
Never abided by no book
They be relying on that hook
Fish out of water the way they dying for a look
I just made it happen
Lot of complaints but we just played the backend
Until we made the backend
Funny how the shit they hated back then
I made a passion
Your fate is passing
cint been asked how the music going
Been doing shit i aint used to doing
But then got used to growing
clmost ran from things that i needed
First five years i stopped breathing
Now its ironic cause when i drop they be speechless
Made peace with you but fought a lot with my demons
How you speak the the truth but not with the speaking
Y'all done seen me lose but its not for no reason
Feel me