Today is Crushing Me

today is crushing me
I hope it's just today
I'll find out tomorrow
with these led hours out of my way
somebody please check in on me
make sure I am still around
today is crushing me
it's not making a sound

I know there's something
I have to see, feel, hear or taste
Today is crushing me
every effort has been a waste
Probably I will get beyond this
find new fires and friend to make
today is crushing me
and I don't know what it's gonna take

my god what have I done
with my time with my heart, my skill or lack there of
my god what have I done
Did I spend all of my love
Did I spend all my love
in the wrong way after all

sleep talk about the weather
and whether it'll get any worse
That's the ideal distraction
When you know you're dying of thirst
I've been crushed before
I used to be 6 foot four
never on a side that could lose
now I am pieces for trampling
and I have no excuse

my god what have it done
did I spend all my love
did I spend all my promise
on the wrong one
my god what have I done
Did I spend all of my love
Did I spend all my love
on the wrong one after all

but I am still working it out
one step, one more
keep on working it out
one breath, one more
I'm still working it out