Realtalk

Yesterday
Doing wrong instead of right
I told them all I’m gon’ be fine, all I’m gon’ be fine
Ever since my emotions died
Ever since I’m trapped in my mind, trapped in my own mind but I’ll be...
Fine when I wake up, my mouth filled with blood
Fine when I’m drunk and I’m vomiting blood
Fine when I’m nauseous and I’m always cold
Fine when my doctor told me what he told
Feel like I lose anything that I got
Look in the mirror, tell me when I’ve changed
Feel like I’m losing myself to some drugs
Know that I’ve lost me, December some Xans
Look in the mirror, tell me when I’ve changed
It’s been 3 years now, it felt like one day
Filled with hangovers, blackouts and mind wipes
I should know better now, still I decline
My looks are not matching my character
Tendence to medicine
“As long as you look good not relevant”
Don’t know my arrogance
Producing some songs to process what I’ve did
I do it a lot to ignore what is present
Add some reverb and cut low frequencies
Double the line to highlight what I mean
Mumble some more so they don’t understand
Still keep my secrets all to myself
The way that I’m living it’s none of your business
I’m keeping my distance from all of those feelings
You know they don’t listen, get rid of ‘em, riddance
Use painkiller pillies to calm down my system
I promised I quit it, promise nonexistent
My future on pending but it might be missing
Reality twisted, I’ve lost the right vision
I told I’m fit yeah but it doesn’t fit me
The way that I’m living it’s none of your business
I’m keeping my distance from all of those feelings
You know they don’t listen, get rid of ‘em, riddance
Use painkiller pillies to calm down my system
I promised I quit it, promise nonexistent
My future on pending but it might be missing
Reality twisted, I’ve lost the right vision
I told I’m fit yeah but it doesn’t fit me