Something Heavy

Thought id fade into the haze of adulthood
Maybe build some nice shelves and die
But convulsing her on the bathroom floor
Ive become hubris personified

Stuck in the it gets worse part of getting better
Without the satisfaction of pacific shedder
Is this growth or more controlled rot?
Decades of pressure, the wound still wont clot

Suffice to say im still on my way

It's like there's something heavy here
That pulls me down
Looming large inside of me
Aching to crown
I tend to prattle on
And my legs do shake
But when that rattles gone
I carry the weight

I don't want to be famous i wanna help
And figure out how crying on vacation
can build wealth

We are moderately influential warlords
We are cosmic royalty
drape our heavenly bodies in purple
and Let it all unfold lawfully

Suffice to say im probably here to stay
a barnacle on your brain stem, no tide could ever pull me away

It's like there's something heavy here
That pulls me down
Looming large inside of me
Aching to crown
I tend to prattle on
And my legs do shake
But when that rattles gone
I carry the weight

To feel whole
I would give up all these gifts
That's not true
Starting over's just another grift
We've seen it get dark
But there were always nights
We could still see the stars

Weve been hurling through space
We have run long enough
It's time that we gave chase
We've seen it get dark
But there were always nights we could
Still see the stars

There's Something Heavy here
But i carry the weight