Scared Of Fucking Up Again

(yxung plague)
Everytime that i fuck up it's like i made the worst mistake ever in my life
The way they reacted is like i fucking killed someone
They think I'm not telling the truth but everytime i do its not they wanted to hear
I guess i have to fucking say i have to fucking admit it everytime even if i have to lie about it
If i try to open up my problems or what i'm into
It never works out and have to fucking pay for it
I feel like i need hurt myself to not be open with anyone fucking i talk to its what i need to do
I'm scared of fucking everything up again

Fuck my life
And fuck my feelings
Fuck my health
And everything about myself