The higher I rise, the harder I fall

Im really fucking afraid that all my progress will go down in the drain
Evaporated and forgotten
Building myself up only for it to go to waste
Some problems might come back and turn my life upside down
Telling myself that shit won't happen but it might happen
All it really takes is a really good lie or one of my old problems to end everything that i fucking worked for
All the friends i met and the girl im in loved with will switch sides and stabbing me hard
Got too attached to them and once im gone they won't be sad and gonna be relievеd that im not breathing anymore

Everything comеs and crashing down
A tower of my life blows up into pieces
Nothing i could do to fucking fix it
Ripping out my emotions and becoming a empty shell
Finding peace in death when i got nothing to lose