Changes

Home from the car I just came through the door
Sit on the floor I feel numb once more
I don't like when time feels like it's stopped
Cause I feel alone sitting with my thoughts
Believe me I do, I really want to
Feel okay for just one single day
I've tried to be strong
I've tried to carry on
Believe me I've tried to hold on
I've really tried to be strong
It's like I'm losing a battle each day day day
And I'm tired of feeling this way way way
All the strength I put in nothing changes changes changes
Maybe if I try just a little harder
The noise in my head will feel somewhat farther
Wish I could take a vacation from my brain
Or ignore everything and it goes away
I know it doesn't work like that
With healing there are no shortcuts
I've tried to be strong
I've tried to carry on
Believe me I've tried to hold on
I've really tried to be strong
It's like I'm losing a battle each day day day
And I'm tired of feeling this way way way
All the strength I put in nothing changes changes changes
And I really want to make it far
But my mind makes it so hard
This year I really went through hell
But no one could even tell
I just really lost myself
Cause I never ask for help
It's like I'm losing a battle each day day day
And I'm tired of feeling this way way way
All the strength I put in nothing changes changes changes