Haven

Chorus (2nd):

Ain’t my job to break the mold, discover what my haven holds
My heart ain’t paved in gold, ain’t my job to save my soul
Ain’t your job to break the mold, discover what your haven holds
Your heart ain’t paved in gold, ain’t your job to save my soul
Cuz I’m not saving yours

Verse 1 (2nd):

Don’t spare my feelings, we both know what we want
This ain’t love, it’s addiction, ain’t something we flaunt
It ain’t sexual shit, it’s shared trauma and we know it
Heads are bloated with the feelings that we want to have- I noticed
You avoid me for weeks on end, and then we link again
Around you, it’s harder and harder for me to think again
I’m hotheaded, stubborn, can’t accept that wе’re a lost cause
You ask bout us, get lock jaw, wе fuck up, it’s the others fault
But when your hand is intertwined with mine, it's like the stars align
Two minds alike, when I’m inside your cold embrace, I feel alive
You can’t decide if I’m worth it, bad memories have cursed it
Got ulterior motives, the both of us- neither one deserves it

PreChorus (Cosmo):

I don't like you, but I love you
I don't want you, but I need you (x2)

Chorus (2nd):

Ain’t my job to break the mold, discover what my haven holds
My heart ain’t paved in gold, ain’t my job to save my soul
Ain’t your job to break the mold, discover what your haven holds
Your heart ain’t paved in gold, ain’t your job to save my soul
Cuz I’m not saving yours

Verse 2 (2nd):

Promises for goddesses cannot apply to devils
Wanting me to take responsibility, you look disheveled
Makeup running down your cheeks, been scared to tell me for weeks
“Please, don’t leave me behind to do this shit alone- stay with me
I know we ain’t okay, I’d rather have you day-to-day with me
Then go the lonely way, I feel afraid, cuz I’m decaying me
I’m due in 38, my bump ain’t started to show
But even if we hate each other, I want you to watch it grow”
I’m speechless, my pieces had connected with hers
And she ain’t lying, I could hear it in the way she said her words
So I sigh, force a smile, and I nod: I’ll become this
I’m already a master at faking it when I'm loveless
Take her hand and lie right to her face, tell her that it’ll be okay
Tell her we’ll be awesome parents, joined until our final days
We both know I’m lying, but we smile anyways
I'm just hoping that my kid don’t end up the same as us