If you told me that you hate me

Chorus:

Do you still got that CD
I sent you in February
Did you leave because it’s too much
Or because you think I’m scary
I just wanted communication
Long distance, shitty situation
Bide my time, knew how to be patient
If you’d told me that you hate me, would’ve hurt less

Verse:

Rewrote the verse a hundred times, I’ll probably rewrite it more
Remember Discord conversations, both us sitting our floors
I don’t know how it was for you, but your smile brightened my week
Making slow but steady progress, help you being less meek
You’re a complicated person in an environment that scars
Out in Ireland, you’re wired into wireless bars
You went viral, turned into an idol, and that’s how we met
Over time, my shoulder virtually became a place you wept
In October, I worked overtime to keep your soul at peace
The lowest me I’ve ever known wanted to hold you close to me
I found myself praying to God, lowered knees
“Please let them find happiness, with or without me, that shits all I hope or need”
In March, you went ghost, I was furious for a time
Thought the way that I expressed love soothed, I was blind
I reread those fucking passages, my stomach fucking turned
I can’t ever share affection, this I surely fucking learned
I hope you’re doing better now
Find yourself a little slice heaven in your town
Just another chapter in me letting people down
I hope that you’re safe
If you get a chance to get out again
Don’t let it waste

Chorus:

Do you still got that CD
I sent you in February
Did you leave because it’s too much
Or because you think I’m scary
I just wanted communication
Long distance, shitty situation
Bide my time, knew how to be patient
If you’d told me that you hate me, would’ve hurt less