Just A Little Bit
Chorus:
My cheek
Pressed into the ground
My dreams
Cacophonous sound
I think
My demons surround
I need her around
I bleed, I bleed
Stop calling in the mornings
You know I need to be rid of this
I’m bored and I’m horny
Indulge just a little
Just a bit tonight
Verse 1:
Had to snicker when she ask if I got liquor
Alcohol get me off quicker, I’m a sick mother fucker, I know
Spark the light, I watch it flicker, haze around my head get thicker
This is normal, that’s the kicker, text my friend some typos
Used to be their idol, used to have self control
Self awareness don’t give clarity, dеspairing my hole
I’m just tryna have a quick thrill, that’s my goal
I’m too weak to еven use any power I hold
Over myself, depths I delve
This is my hell, self made, baby
Ask if I’m well, I’m flying on a high
Until I fell, and it’s never the same again
Chorus:
My cheek
Pressed into the ground
My dreams
Cacophonous sound
I think
My demons surround
I need her around
I bleed, I bleed
Stop calling in the mornings
You know I need to be rid of this
I’m bored and I’m horny
Indulge just a little
Just a bit tonight
Verse 2:
You always laugh at addiction until it touches you
I always laughed at submission until it brushes through
Intensely hard to express some sexuality
Terrified I say the wrong thing, cuz in reality
I’m petrified by little lies that others love to spread
I’m petrified that I might die because of things that others said
They find my suffering relatable, I’m manic and insatiable
Alcohol just makes me sink deeper in the pages
Lo and behold, an eighteen year old dependent on the Tinder scroll
There’s no connection for the man who never learned to grow
My bodies probably in some fucking perverts camera roll
I wish I’d never been online
Chorus:
My cheek
Pressed into the ground
My dreams
Cacophonous sound
I think
My demons surround
I need her around
I bleed, I bleed
Stop calling in the mornings
You know I need to be rid of this
I’m bored and I’m horny
Indulge just a little
Just a bit tonight
Bridge:
My cheek
Pressed into the ground
My dreams
Cacophonous sound
I think
My demons surround
I need her around
I bleed, I bleed (x2)
Verse 3:
Don’t know why, but I thought that things would be different now
That the voices would quiet, my mind would listen now
Everytime I shut my eyes, visions pass I can’t describe
Bad intrusive thoughts, forever lost, my friends would testify
I’m addicted to the pleasures websites give me
Power fantasies that I receive, they lift me
I have no control of what I do when I’m tipsy
But lately, I’m just searching videos of kissing
Of closeness, intimacy
Something I barely received, wanted her to be comfortable
In exchange, I forfeited my own needs
There’s a boy I like, but I can’t tell if I like him or if I’m lonely
I have dreams of the future- Felix still got his lover
We both got an apartment, swear that man’s like a brother
Us two passing a joint, aight, I can have another
Gabe’s back from the Navy, Kaleb brought all the others
It’s a party for the summer, our apartment dimmed
We’re all a part of him, regardless of the flaws he brought with him
I’m laughing, so distracted, then that TV turn off
I open my eyes, and realize I’m back in hell