Better Said

My friends all gas you up, and your friends just dumb me down
I don't feel safe with you in their clutch, all around them
What can I say, I am aware I see a mountain
Uphill way, familiar face that I've encountered
I've changed location, I cascade from my surroundings
Bad habit, going out of the way to get empowered
I'm ashamed, but I could never play around, Girl
What did they say
I wasn't asking to know, but I wanted to know anyway
Feels like I'm talking to stone, and it feels like I'm stoned everyday
I wasn't smoking on OG 'til I met you and I couldn't wait
Now I'm smoking to bide in my patience
This minimum wage shit ain't helping me move out of stationary
And to be honest it's basic like you
You said you don't hate me, but I do
I just couldn't say it all in haikus
Honestly that shit would fuck up my mood just like everything that falls in spiral

I try not to let it bother me
It's nothing new, but it's growing into dark and somber-ing
Remain under cool
Heartthrob, you're a thing that bothers me still you're no worse than school
It's never definite with you, it's just probably, so fuck all of the rules
Yeah, and fuck all of my cool
I'm always on the verge of losing my mind, I won't say it's you
I ain't gonna say I couldn't make, although I wouldn't take, a lie over truth
Back to back I listen in to many things, I'm on the trend of wasting my youth
All of it was wasted by you

I'm getting too old too quick, sometimes I think I'm too old for this
Love of my life knew this, and she still wanna waste all my time, who's this
Now she's calling me, there ain't no call ID
I feel a little bit of her in me
I wanna whittle into my kidney or any other organ she marked
I wanna fucking cut out my heart
I couldn't make it out here one day if I didn't know to play the hard part
Cause my intuition plays the aardvark meaning it sniffs out all the small shit
I wasn't aiming for the ball park, I'm looking more to where the mall is
I could just say anything that I want and it didn't make a difference in your mood at all
But there ain't a difference in right or wrong in your head, that's a reason we've taken a fall
And I gotta break it to you, I think I fucking got a problem with love
But I wanna shake the feeling
And I wanna make it into someone's guts
I know every moment I ain't getting back, so I gotta pace it to you
Every crisis hits like a heart attack, not really a stable person
But you were part of every other one, and that is what made you worth
But sometimes I hate you for it

But I could never give a fuck, honestly never cared too much
She would like never give me none and on top of that never show me love
She would like never pick me up, part of me said she's up above
Everyone said that that's too much
I don''t think I ever said enough